Wednesday, July 6, 2011

My First Blog...

I’m Blogging…? I Mean, Yay I’m Blogging!!!
So the blog you are about to read was my very first blog ever, but since I'm now on this blogger instead of (because you can get more creative and personal with your blogs on blogger) I'm transferring some of my old blog posts for when I'm too busy or tired or whatever to make a new blog. Enjoy!

“To thine own self be true.” -Hamlet

I wanted to start off my blog with the right thoughts and motives behind it; this quote will hopefully embody what I want to do with this blog, and everyone after this. Mary Baker Eddy said (and I’m paraphrasing here) that if someone really wanted to get to know her, all one had to do was to read her writings (again, very paraphrased! lol).
I want people to get to know me, the real me and not just the me I can project, and I also want to get to know myself. I actually sometimes wonder if I know who I am and where I truly stand in the world, and what I want to be and do with my life. So I’m hoping this blog will help in discovering myself, as well as give others the opportunity to get to know me if they so choose.
I put on a lot of masks
For the rest of this blog, and ones to follow I will be focusing on ideas presented in a recent Christian Science lecture I just watched. This lecture focused on relationships, and asked “Who am I?” and “What do I want?” This lecture helped me through a recent heart ache, and made me realize some things:
1.) My cousin was right. She told me that this person hasn’t earned a deep enough trust, so why was I so willing to give so much without any inclination that they would catch me? 2.) I’m at a growing point in my life where lots of things are far from being any kind of permanent, and 3.) I’m worth fighting for.
I love masks
I used to think only the bitchy, snotty girls (the girls I never wanted to be) thought they were hot stuff, and worth everything… And while I don’t think I’m worth EVERYTHING, nor do I want to be with someone who would allow me to treat them in any way that wasn’t mutually caring and loving, I’m worth much more then I have ever given myself credit for.
It’s okay to be fought for and treated like you mean the world to someone because they make your life and your world that much brighter. It doesn’t mean that you’re egocentric or selfish, it just shows that you care enough about yourself to be treated with respect and love. You have to learn how to love yourself first if you’re ever going to love, care for and respect someone else.
How can someone else be expected to love you, if you first do not love yourself? So right now, I’m going to focus on loving myself, and I’d encourage the same to anyone else out there who has been entertained enough to read this far :) 

Thanks for reading my first blog ever!
<3 always,

1 comment:

  1. Jodes! Good for you in exploring a larger grander view of self -- you are amazing and I am so proud of you!